另一个我...

愚人节?
今天一大早已让全家人受刺激了,感到很难过,也觉的非常内疚。

一直以来,我都是和妹妹睡同一间房的,但从上个星期,我开始自己一个人睡了。 
很好笑吧?接近21岁才肯一个人睡? 其实也被逼的。
从来没自己一个人睡,都没关过灯睡觉。昨晚因太累,所以九点已睡了,之后半夜又醒来了,半夜一醒,就很难再入睡,导至自己四点多凌晨才睡觉。
五点半早上,妹妹因为有东西要跟我拿,就敲我房门,敲了几次都没回音,就拨我手机号码。也许我真的睡的太过熟,根本就没听到任何声音,妹妹急坏了,就通知妈妈,妈妈也开始敲我房门,结果也是一样,哥哥弟弟听到太吵了,也就醒了,开始叫我名,一直拨电。他们开始责怪彼此,担心我出了什么事。两把锁匙又在我手里,爸爸最后拿了锤子把我的门锁打开,他们见到我还是躺着睡觉,妈妈担心我是否晕到有事就叫爸爸敢快把我摇了一下,他们见到我起的时後,才觉得安心。而我还半醒半觉的,根本都不知到发生什么事。
说实话,我才刚刚知道关于这一切,见到妈妈心疼的表情,也使到自己觉的非常难过。弟弟还以为我耍什么愚人节把戏,但我是真的没有故意这么做的。
真的对不起。。。
 妈妈非常操心也因为知道全家里,就唯一身子弱的我,健康壮况也不好,所以根本就没放心过我。
对不起。。。

今天又被同事玩弄的团团转,太可恶了!越玩越过分,使到我哭了才肯停止。玩弄人家,真的有那么好玩吗?见到别人哭,很爽吗?
今天又有两个大色狼来公司,也不知道为什么那么爱故意要摸人家的手,变态的!
要我帮忙印那个资料,但是有开黄片,污染我的电脑罢了!

一直以来,我都把全部不开心的事放在心里,很难受。
 我把自己变去另一个人·,让大家看我开心的样子罢了。
就像现在一样,不列外。
我只觉的让他们伤心时,自己会觉的更难过,不如让他们开心更好!

为何人的生命是那么短的呢? 很多愿望都还没实现,也不知是否会实现...

明天是清明节了,得去打扫坟墓了,有得去佛堂烧香和拜一拜,但这次我觉的我会去教堂,因为也是基督徒的大日子。
自从我进了基督教,就很少进庙堂了,有时使到爸爸不开心的。
想当年,我一直求爸爸让我转教,都等了足足两年,爸爸才肯让我进基督教,根本就是没那么容易过关的。进基督教也没那么简单,都学了整整三年才能成为真真的基督徒。
又想回前男友要我进回佛教,太难了,我根本就是做不到,要我放弃我所经历那么多难关才能得到的事是不可能的!分手了,就觉得轻松多了。

今天发生了几件让我不开心的事,使到自己情绪慢低落的。
谢谢妹妹都一直逗我开心。


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FIRST COMMENTER

28 comments:

  1. 也不能指着你吧!也许你真的是太累了,所以睡得醒不来呢。我相信每个人尤其是妈妈知道你不是故意的。:)

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  2. 你身体比较虚弱?嗯,那你自己也要好好照顾自己哦。不管你几岁,在爸妈的眼里你永远还是他们心里的可爱小美玲!:)

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  3. 哇!为何这些色狼可以来到你的公司啊?很想去揍他们啊。他们那么好色你要小心点哦。有时你真的要告诉他们要和你保持距离,要不然你就会喊非礼!不要让他们得寸进尺。:(

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  4. 有时你不开心时真的要找的知心来诉苦哦。不要把它闷在心里。找个人来谈心也很好哦。要时常以正面去看待每件事,我是酱的。:)

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  5. 生命的短长根本不是在我们的掌握里。但是我们可以决定我们生活的宽度。好好掌握我们拥有的每一分每一秒吧!生活最重要的不是结果,而是我们所经历的过程。:)

    希望今天你会比较开心。Ha:D

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  6. Oops...all the little squares! Can't comment...

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  7. Soli me 香蕉人 [xiāngjiāorén] no understand have to slow slow read ~:( ¿ ¿ ¿ Have a nice day. (can tolong cut story short in one sentence? haha):P tQ.

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  8. @Tekkaus: thnx for all the words,unc. (: i am feeling much better than yesterday.(:

    @suituapui: urs can't read chinese characters one ah? its okie la. (:

    @Bananaz:hehe.. if urs can translate page, maybe u can try to translate it to english. btw, its funny aftr translated cz some of it not correct one. :P btw, nothing interesting in this post, just that emo me. :)

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  9. today i m an alien here.. tak paham.. putt toong.. hahahaa..
    hope u r not emo now.. it is just one of those days..

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  10. @reanaclaire:hehe,dnt feel dat way. (: its okie, doesn't matter. no more emo me today, i hope .

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  11. tak faham... tak faham... engris pls...

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  12. @Merryn: lol wats ur web browser? if google chrome, can choose to translate de. (:

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  13. OMG!!! i couldn't believe my eyes!! Tekkaus is writing in Chinese?? this is such a surprise for me~~

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  14. carol, don't take that so harshly.. i mean you can expect your family members to care about you a lot, of course if they sense something wrong they will be very worried and anxious right?? this is the bond between family members and it's very common.. so next time, try to be more vigilent, don't just sleep like a dead log, hahahaha!!

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  15. [SK]:lol, u never seen uncle tekkaus write in chinese? hmm.. well.. i know but never thought can be this much. i mean i am almost 21 dy, dey shudnt treat me like small kids. ROFL! i ever slept for 14 hours kay last time. hahaha! thats d result of being a night owl. lol! anyway thnx SK! :)

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  16. finally, i was able to translate your language. it took me half an hour to figure out what language is this. At first, i thought that it id "Malay" knowing that you're from Malaysia then i tried searching online and found out that malaysian have more than one languages. There are indian malaysian and chinese malaysian.. Since it is very close to chinese characters, i tried translating Chinese to english and it worked! hooray~

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  17. Happy April Fools day Caroline!
    Actually, it is, somehow, sweet for your parents to worry about you (well, i know they should always care for you but this one shows hoiw much thay care about you, and they're really care a lot)
    thank you for sharing the story

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  18. @bluedreamer27: hehe yay for u! lol. at least u're d 1st one who translated it. :D lol if u read the page "the writer" then u know i am mix chinese. their care too much and scared me somehow. lol. :)

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  19. Me using Chrome *paiseh* how to do the translation ¿ H-E-L-P!!!please. tQ

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  20. @Bananaz: eih? how come? i tot it will come out automatically aye! mine, whenever i open the page that is not in english, will come out this on the top --> this page is in (chinese simplified han)Would you like to translate it ? (Translate/Nope) if urs dnt hv, i think u can do the setting or maybe search website that provide translation languages. :)

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  21. @Bananaz: here u go. http://translate.google.com

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  22. Thankz for getting the link to the translation appreciate it very much. Glad you are OK now, in every dark cloud there is always a silver lining. tQ

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  23. @Bananaz: no probbie! :) yes thanks all!

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  24. yay! haha but actually even you translate it (not just in Chines but all thew other language) into english, it's not exactly right.
    It may be grammatically wrong but you can still understand the thoughts.. thanks to the online language translators Cheers!

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  25. oh you're not familiar with Dolly Parton.?.. Actually i don't know why i am so addicted in old music, i am just 20 years old and those music is kinda inappropriate in my age... though i still love modern music it's just that, i prefer listening to old music more than the modern ones! Amybe because i grew up with my granma who's always listening to old school music

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  26. @bluedreamer27: haha yea actually i LOLed hard when reading it in other language, haha most of it upside down! hehe well oldies always nice and wont get bored listen to it. :)

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  27. Firefox cannot translate meh? Just use the website to translate la... no? :)

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  28. @Irenelim: firefox an translate too. :) haha yea got language translator website too.

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