People, I had this enough already.

I am sorry to say that I really wanted to withdraw myself the so-called Blog Idol contest.

I am really tired of get "attacked" by people I don't know for every starting of each song category.

Worst that now people not playing it fairly, it just getting nastier and I don't want to keep myself in nasty and dirty game like this.

I am not joining it to get fame.

So, that's it.

Some of you may say am being over sensitive over this issue, but you do not know me well.

Some of you may just gonna say me coward, but I think I have to concern myself more and especially my health. It is not worth it for me to continue this nasty game if people just aimed me. 

What people want is just their favorite idol to win and with my withdrawal, its easier already.

So, you guys can celebrate it now for your favorite idol.

Totally unfair situation and it is very obvious.

I also know that nobody would care because most of you just going to say am just a little girl who don't know what I am saying and don't need to take seriously for what I am saying.

I now myself very well, really thanks to foongpc, Merryn and uncle Tekkaus for all those people come to my read my blog.

Thanks a bunch.

I guess you all also know that Merryn and I are quite close to each other. 

What she told me last night is so true.

All these doesn't worth it and am not deserve to be treated this way.

Poor me.

Glad that she also told me to withdraw myself before its getting nastier.

She's very clear with what had happened since the started of this nasty game.

Ignorance is the best yet people just don't stop there.

But again...

I realized this blogging world is way too much for me already.

Am glad for people who love me and my blog. 

Am glad to get to know with all amazing people like you all.

I meant it. :)

I am so mean to kept on blog about my anger and craps.

You guys have to bear with it. *lol*

I enjoy giving people pressie to show my appreciation to them. 

Today is bro Gilbert's 10th birthday, I really wish to celebrate with him but seems like I can't make it due to more important thing I have to do.

After this, I hope for those who dislike me, please respect my blog and leave here. :)

For my blogger friends who not agree with what I am saying here, I don't mind if you stop visiting my blog because my purpose to blog is not because of all these nonsense crap.

I am not saying crap at here and I am just voice out my opinion towards this kind of situation.

Thanks. 

Lastly, I am really sorry to Bluedreamer.

I know I am supposed to talk to you first about my withdrawal but I didn't see you online and I can't take it no more.

This is totally unfair to me and for me this contest is not just a simple contest where people joining for fun.

I am not blaming you and this is beyond your control.

I am not joining it to get attacked by certain idol's fans and get humiliate by people I don't know at there.

I am not that tough to face it every week.

Just need to wait for another 10 mins...
Happy Weekends people! =D

Give me some time and some space to breathe.
Please do not pressure me. :)
I may be tough outside but u will not know how fragile inside it is. 
Look at it at different angle and you'll get the answer. :)


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FIRST COMMENTER:



JUST FOR YOU:

Seems like am showing my dissatisfaction huh?

Well, I've spent some times to read blogs just now. 

Guess what? These TWO posts is really reminds me about how my lecturers and most of my friends thought that I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK.

The two blog post are -  suituapui's and uncle Tekkaus's. 

Just so you guys know that I am graduated in Diploma in Tourism Management.

 So, for being in the hospitality line, FOODS is always with us! Yea right, nice to see, nice to eat.

I remembered the most how they rated my cooking skills just by how I look and act?!

It’s happened on my final semester whereby we’re having Tourism Marketing subject and I still remember that one of my course-mate Jannyfer is going to get married and we starts being busybody about how’s her wedding arrangement, her future in-laws, her future husband and her COOKING SKILLS. See… we are supposed to just talk about her, but when come to the last topic, I’ve been “wanted” and become the victim of the topic.

The lecturer start asking how we rate ourselves in cooking skills, and we go one by one, it’s started smoothly and till my turn and I said I would rate myself B+

Here it is, everyone start looking and laughing at me, I was like “What’s wrong?! I can cook as well kay!” Then they said C+ would be suited me more. I am getting so frustrated. Even my bestie was at there and she stand at their side owh. She knew that I can actually cook, I cooked dinner for both them when I stayed overnight at their place aye! Hmph!

The fact is I CAN cook, just that I LESS cook okay?

Although I start learns to cook when I’m 18-years old but it’s not too late right?

I do admit that since I start study, I am very very seldom cooking. :P

Seldom cooking doesn’t mean didn’t cook at all, right?

I ever prepared three complete meals when I stayed over at my classmate’s place for study purpose.

 I helped my mom prepare lunch when she’s sick and dad out working.

I cooked with my little aunt Frenda too when i stayed with her.

I even cooked for my last last time former boyfriend when he’s at my house.

I can cook, it just that I need to polish up my cooking skills.

Don’t just think I only know how to cook Maggie mee and fried egg kay!

Everyone won’t want to believe that I am 19 years old that time, they always says me 9-years old kid. 

That’s the reason I am so glad that I am 20-years old last year 1^st December!

 They can’t say anything because the number is 20. Heee. :P

I know it’s weird for a person keep wanting their age getting older, but seriously I am desperately want to reach 21!

Another thing bothering me is people thought I always showing my blurr aka confuse face expression when they talk about something. 

Of course I am going to give you blurr look when you talk about something I do not know. Hmph!

I know sometimes you guys just purposely twisting up some topics and make me get confused and when I get blurr and trying to think about it, you guys laughing there!

It’s not fun at all kay!

I am not those little kids for you guys to play around.

One last thing, I don’t like being labeled as innocent.

TQ.

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FIRST COMMENTER:


Just for you:

What is LOVE?

Everyone gonna give u many different answers and its actually more likely based on how their relationship's at that moments. 

For those who just started a relationship and love is in the air, they just gonna tell you that love is such wonderful thing and sweet, as long as something nice about love.

For those who don't really into it, they just gonna tell you that being single or not, doesn't matter. 

For those who just broke up or broken-hearted, they gonna tell you that love is pain and kills.

See....

Its just so different based on how individual look at it.

We always can see how happy people are when they started the relationship and they just live in their world.

How sweet and romantic it is.

But, is that last long?

Young people like us with not mature enough minded, who is still not prepare to give commitment and still want to enjoy life, tell me how long can u stand?

No offense but mostly guys are the one who always acting that way.

I am not saying only guys the one who always not serious when it comes to relationship matter, it just that from what i experienced, all my friends around me, mostly girls are the one who are actually put efforts on their relationship compare to their boyfriend,

Even me myself too.

Why guys just can't be a BIT nicer to their girlfriend?

Why guys NEVER trust their girlfriend instead of trust other b!tches?

Why guys always be the UNFAITHFUL one?

Why guys just cannot be a gentleman when it comes to relationship matter?

Why guys never learn to APPRECIATE on what their girlfriend sacrificed just for them?

Why guys prefer to be a GREEDY person?

Why guys always being so EGOISTIC person?

Why guys tends to CHANGE after the relationship getting longer? 

Why guys always give some STUPID reasons to break up whereby just to cover their bloody mistakes behind the relationship?

Am not complaining, (altho it sounds like) its just that whats i realized.

Guys only will put 200% efforts when they wanna starts tackle a girl, once they got her heart, the efforts is lesser. Why?

All those sweet as honey words and bloody promises gone where?

I can say only 1 out 10 couples that gonna last forever if they do really give full commitment to each other and with mature minded. :)

Today, i was so bored in the office and to lessen up my boredom feelings, i starts reading all my friend's blog.

I enjoy reading it and till i read one of my ex-course-mate's blog.

I just wondering if her boyfriend did actually read through her blog.

Though i never experience it, i just can imagine how hard it is to be couple with a guy which actually still missing his ex-girlfriend. As what she said, she has been living under his ex-girlfriend's shadow, and feels like he just keep her for a replacement of his ex-girlfriend? :-S

When there is crisis in a relationship, girls are the one who always feel miserable, being so moody, couldn't sleep at all, no appetite to eat, no mood to study which always affects their results, crying alone most of the time, starting to blame their selves, etc.

Guys just seems don't care at all.

Exception for a few guys that i know. :) 

Actually when guys get jealous, its worse than girls. 

Very unfair situations..

Why girls who's the one who should always tolerate when there is an argument occurs?

Why guys always ask their girlfriend not to flirt other guys yet they are the one who flirting other girls?

Why guys can go out with anyone they want or go anywhere they like but they don't allow their girlfriend to have the same freedom too?

Why guys only know how to give promises and never do it and keep it?

Why guys always blame their girlfriends without analyse and find out the truth at the first step?

Why girls always need to forgive and forget on what their boyfriend did and if they are the one who did the mistake, their boyfriend just gonna dump them immediately?

See how complicated is that for being in a relationship?

When i thought am actually can totally forget the past, i just realized that i couldn't.

From now onwards, i don't want to be emo type.

I just wanna live normal and aim for what im looking for. :)

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So today u came to me and tell me how bad is your feelings is about your boyfriend, do you think am gonna care after what u did to me? Yet as a friend, i still be a good listener for u. 

Look... am still the person u looking for when u are down.

Why don't u think why u back stabbed me and sabotaged me?

I will never ever hate u as u're forgiven. I will not have grudge towards you or another her and even him.

Because u guys taught me a lesson in life.

It just that u guys wont have my trust.